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i doubt any one of you will be interested to read this post, as it will contain alot of rubbish and crap and BLA.

everyone knows, that EOYs are finally over, right? that its the time to play, to relax, to release all stress that we ever had when we were mugging so hard for those exams, right? i thought so too, only to realise that nope, im wrong. i understand, last week on saturday, i wont be able to go out and shop or eat a nice dinner with sarah, because i was having exams. fine, i know i have to study, it was expected anyway. but i really demand to know, why oh why, this week im not allowed to go out either? dont i deserve to get some relaxation and fun, after all the hard work? dont i?

you say im self-centered, but arent you even worse? i mean, fine, i know you're stressed up and everything, but my exams are over, my stress is supposed to be like, GONE, you know, DISAPPEAR? but nope, you dont let me, you dont let any of us have NO STRESS, because you make sure stress comes to us one way or another. you dont let me have any fun, you keep me to the house to hear your screaming and everything.

please. sarah has gone shopping and everything, even though her sister has exams. i fully understand that my siblings are having exams, and that our family CANNOT go out shopping. but how come sarah's family can? and besides, nvm if we dont go out, you dont even let me follow them. just what is your freaking problem? i so totally wish that i was born into sarah's family instead of mine. or like, i was sarah's sister or something.

and what about you? where are you when i need you? when im in my saddest moods, you're never there for me, and yet you claimed that you will always be there for me. i wish you never told me that, and that i never met you, and that everything never happened. i just wish.. that i was back in like, i dont know, p5? when i was sweet and innocent and everything (ohkay not really)

i really wish that i was adopted by my parents and that my biological parents will faster hurry up and take me back to where i belong. (yeah, right)